Breaking the Family Curse Part 7 "An Insecure, Arrogant King"
Introduction.
When our primary identity gets wrapped up in our performance as preachers, we start to think like Harold Abrahams. We step up to the platform, raise our eyes and look over the congregation, with thirty lonely minutes to justify our existence—if not to others, at least to ourselves. What a terribly insecure way to live.
But the damage runs deeper than just our own internal sense of security. If we get the order reversed—finding our primary identity in our service for Christ rather than our salvation in Christ—we actually become dangerous in ministry. Instead of preaching to meet the needs of others, we preach to meet our own needs—our insatiable thirst for affirmation and validation. We also become tempted to modify our message to sustain the approval of our audience. In a sense, we become parasitic preachers, living off the very sheep we were called to serve.
Iniquity literally means nothingness, and so is constantly used for “an idol;” and this must be its signification here, as the word coupled with it, and rendered idolatry, is really teraphim. These were the Hebrew household gods, answering to the Roman Lares, and were supposed to bring good luck. Their worship, we see from this place, was strictly forbidden. The verse, therefore, means, “For rebellion is the sin of divination (i. e. is equal to it in wickedness), and obstinacy (i. e. intractableness) is an idol and teraphim.” Samuel thus accuses Saul of resistance to Jehovah’s will, and of the determination at all hazards to be his own master. With this temper of mind he could be no fit representative of Jehovah, and therefore Samuel dethrones him. Henceforward he reigns only as a temporal, and no longer as the theocratic, king.